Thursday, September 2, 2010

Project Master Bedroom ...Progression


blue and white mixed floral print bedding+master bedroom decor ideas+large clircles mirrors


You may remember a tweetphoto if you follow me on twitter of the mirror I originally bought for above our mantel but when I got home realized it was a far better fit as a pair in the master bedroom {also mentioned here} and since this was the only one available instore, I wondered where I would find another one. But not for long ...soon after, a most adorable & thoughtful reader named Stephanie emailed me a link to the same exact mirrors on the QVC website ...which were available for HALF what I paid. Since I needed two, I immediately ordered both online then promptly returned the original mirror for a refund ...equalling the exact amount of both. Thank you Stephanie!


master bedroom+circles mirrors+blue and white mixed floral prints


blue and white bedding+barclay butera pillows+antique cedar chest+reflection on ceiling
...late afternoon reflection on the ceiling is my favorite. It turns to blue soon after this


master bedroom decor ideas+circles mirrors+night stands+console tables+vintage meets modern


bedroom nook for chair+blue and white beach bedroom+rustic dresser
...looking for a perfect cozy chair for this corner...


blue and white tropical beach master bedroom+rustic dresser+antique cedar chest


large rustic dresser+blue and white floral bedding+mounted flatscreen tv+porcelain vases


mounted flat screen+blue and white accents+shells accents+beach decor+rustic dresser



vintage glass knobs+circle mirrors+master bedroom+beach accents
...remember my knob dilemma? I decided to just use the vintage glass knobs I already had ...which I also used to hang my necklaces on in my dressing room/office


blue vases+blue and white floral+coral+red flowers+bedrrom decor ideas


cirlcles mirror+large round mirror+accent mirror+decorating ideas


I chose red flowers just to see if I wanted a contrast color in the room. Flowers are an easy way to get a pop of color without committing because, obviously, they die. And while I do like the bit of red contrast, I think I prefer the large leafy look seen in my first bedroom post.


circles mirror+shells+blue and white porcelain+master bedroom decorating ideas



While things are seemingly coming together in our master bedroom and the feeling is quite tranquil, I still feel like I'm in the gathering stage of decor. I'm liking the elements but they're not quite right just yet. I'd love a comfy chair in the corner, a garden stool, two tall leafy plants for either side of the window looking out to the pool, and art or framed photographs, something for either side of the rustic dresser. I may also be inclined to find another smaller plush rug or rugs to lay on top of the carpet remnant. I dunno. It's still a work in progress, as is every room it seems but I'm happy with it for now.


tropical beach style bedroom decorating ideas+blue and white floral bedding


Product link list: Blue & white contrast floral sheets {Marimekko ® Sarafan Cobalt Sheet Sets} from Crate & Barrel but are no longer available. Hand made quilt at the end of the bed is Kerry Cassill - Paisley Label from a GILT home sale and quilted floral shams in the front by John Robshaw Textiles {also from a GILT home sale}, Barclay Butera pillows on the antique cedar chest by the window, blue and white porcelain vases from the Salvation Army and a few from my boss's mother's house that he was getting rid of {I'd still like a few more larger scale pieces}, Decorative 38" Iron Ring Starburst Wall Mirror, console tables from a local shop called Mainly Seconds, shells are from my mom's collection, faux coral from Pottery Barn, component organizer under TV from amazon



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Wednesday, September 1, 2010

I am ready for the road less traveled


cardigan dressing+white skirt+brown accessories+wind blown+tom ford anouk sunglasses


tom ford anouk sunglasses+wind in hair+rachel roy earrings


tom ford anouk sunglasses+white skirt+peach tank+lamb sandals_sharp


wind blown+white skirt+vintage belt+louis vuitton speedy+lamb shoes+sharpac


louis vuitton speedy with rabbits foot+vintage carved leather belt


Lamb Sandals+louis vuitton speedy+white skirt+wind blown hair+tom ford anouk sunglasses


LAMB sandals+louis vuitton speedy+vintage belt+white skirt+tom ford sunglasses


What I'm Wearing
* Miguelina peach tank from GILT ...last seen here
* Victoria's Secret boyfriend v-neck sweater cut up the middle into a cardigan {yes this really works & you know this if you're a long-time reader ...it's 85% silk & 15% cashmere and I sliced it from the v-neck down years ago and it hasn't unraveled or frayed a bit since. I wash them in cold and sometime toss them in the dryer or line dry them. I say "them" because I've done it to 3 now. All with awesome results. I love the way they hang and clearly don't need them for warmth or to button up but are perfect for work. ...last seen here {I clearly wear this one the most ...but here's the navy one paired with a dress I just saw Eva Longoria wearing recently actually {and from when I used my iMac to shoot my photos & at work, hilarious!}
* White cutout/lace trim skirt ...from a local Farmer's Market a couple years ago. Tag says HiBiS Lace Works - Van Couver | Los Angeles ...last seen here {wow, these old outfit posts are like a time machine. It takes a while to get you're photos right ...and I'm sure in another year, I'll say the same about these}
* Vintage belt ...I would have actually preferred this rad belt from ASOS {which I just bought} seen on Smile yesterday because I'm not 100% loving the one I'm wearing but it was the closest match
* L.A.M.B. studded sandals from GILT I absolutely love these heels but they are a bit high even for me ...though if my ankle weren't in need of a doctor's visit, I'd be fine but since it's so swollen, it's hard for me to arch it right ...I know, I know ...I'm making doctor rounds
* Rachel Roy gold drop earrings ...love these
* Tom Ford Sunglasses - Anouktom ford anouk sunglasses, cat eye sunglasses, brown sunglasses
* Louis Vuitton Speedy 30 bag
* Hair: waved {see video ...no don't, I need to make a new one} ...and clipped with the perfect tiny hair clips ...close up here & later after I changed, lol
* Title : from Katy Perry "Who Am I Living For" ...I obviously am addicted to Katy Perry's new album. It's really fantastic.

Of course as soon as I stepped outside to shoot a few outfit pics, the wind picked up and not only blew my hair directly into my lip gloss but puffed my blouse up like a loaf of baking bread. Awesome.

A word {or paragraph} about yesterdays post : I promised myself I would never apologize for my blog because well, it's mine and if you aren't interested then don't come here :) BUT I do want to express a little sorry for my sad post yesterday. Sometimes it just hits like a ton of bricks and yes, I am lucky in so many ways and yes things could be worse and no I'd rather not blather on and on {for years} about how I can't get pregnant but I do so again and again, thank you for listening. I've also noticed when I'm in that little baby funk that my DIYs seem to disappear. Funny thing, sadness, zapping me of my creativity & motivation. Bah I say! But I've got a few ideas that I'll get to work on and share with you very soon ;) I've also been putting off a hair video for about a month now. Such a procrastinator ;)

Happy Hump Day ...let's make that literal today, shall we? {well, not YOU and ME literally ...but you know what I mean}



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Tuesday, August 31, 2010

I guess this is how I'm working through it


I'm not sure that I quite understand sadness ...or rather, what to do with so much of it. I know that for so long I dealt with it angrily. And as hard as I try to handle it maturely now, when sadness completely overwhelms me I will still sometimes resort to a tiny temper tantrum of rage. A door slam. A scream. A kick maybe.

I remember when I was young, in those teen angst years, I allowed myself to cry. To dramatically scribble and scratch everything down in a journal and sob for hours on my bed listening to Tori Amos& pouring emotion out until I fell asleep and woke up the next morning refreshed as if nothing had happened. I remember my mom once telling me that she was afraid to cry and I confidently advised her to just do it. A good cry is like a hard rain, I used to say, it washes all the dirt away.

But somewhere along the way I lost that outlet and never found a replacement. And now, as a woman in my 30's {and maybe much like my mom} instead of releasing sadness, a cry seems to evoke fearful thoughts. What's wrong with me? Am I going to cry forever? Am I depressed? Am I CRAZY?! OHMYGOD! What's WRONG WITH ME!? I judge the process and when I suppress the tears, panic & anxiety rise.

I tried to think back to my itty bitty childhood ...to the first thing that I could remember that brought up the feelings of sadness and all I could come up with was a vague idea of my dad. A carousel of horrible moments in time, like flashbacks in a movie raced through my mind, all equalling sadness that I turned into anger. Because just what do I do with sadness? Anger, in my family, was much more acceptable than sadness ...or maybe it just got more attention. In fact, now that I think about it, everyone in my small family environment was angry about something.

I was in a play in high school with a fairly awesome drama teacher who during that time period took me aside and said "Through your sadness, you bring others joy". Though it has stuck with me through the years, I was shocked at the time ...I honestly had no idea I was sad until that moment.

What moments from my past have I held onto so closely that they have now become part of my identity ...and so much so that I have no idea either what they are or how to let them go? And even while I ask myself the questions I'm not sure if answers are even what I want. Is it possible I like the sadness? Is it possible that I hold the pain close to my heart so I can trigger the sadness at any moment just to feel it again and again and again?

pregnancy


But here's a new sadness added to all the others that have compiled over time giving life to my present moment. How the fuck am I ever going to not be sad about not being able to get pregnant and create a family I always dreamed of? How?

And what's worse is I hate that I'm sad about it ...AND I hate that I'm judgmental about how I feel about it. It's beyond ridiculous.

Have you seen the movie Julie and Julia? If you're a blogger or love to cook or maybe even are just a female, odds are you did. For me, there were really only two moments that stood out. One is when Julia is in the park, she notices a woman pushing a stroller and was visibly upset by it and two, when Julia cried at the news of her sister's pregnancy. Julia wasn't young in this particular portrayal of her life yet her tears were obvious pain & sadness of not being able to create and have a family {though I do not know her bio and/or why she remained childless}. So I guess my question is, did that pain stay with her until she died?

. . . meaning

Am I going to be upset about this forever?

There are so many components tied into it now it's utterly mind blowing. And every time I think I'm okay with it, that I've accepted it, the sadness inexplicably returns. I honestly wish there was some way to be unaffected by it all but I'm not sure what that is. {If you're a long-time reader, you may know this from reading my previous pregnancy posts and by now you must be rolling your eyes}. Sometimes I'm not even aware I'm upset but yesterday for instance, I was so very tired, like didn't want to get out of bed -tired. And when my husband came home later that afternoon I told him how tired I was and he asked me what I was sad about? I said "Sad? ..I thought I was just tired. But now I want to cry" ...what am I sad about?

The same thing I'm always sad about.

I guess this is how I'm working through it. Thanks for listening ;)




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Monday, August 30, 2010

When We're Working in Perfect Harmony


striped dress+brown accessories+louis vuitton+miu miu+tom ford

summer dress+miu miu sandals+louis vuitton speedy

chevron striped multi dres+brown accessories+miu miu

chevron striped dress+clogs

summer dress+miu miu clog sandals+70's 80's dress

striped dress+brown leather belt+hair

striped dress+miu miu shoes+louis vuitton speedy bag


What I'm Wearing
* Forever 21 chevron striped jersey dress {I bought this last summer actually and ripped the tag off this morning to wear it} I also bought it in a Large instead of a Medium and while it's a little big, I kinda like it better on the loose side
* Erin Leigh Heart brown oversized cardigan ...last seen here
* Brown leather belt
* Miu Miu clog sandals ...last seen here
* Privileged gold wishbone necklace ..from GILT
* Tom Ford Yvette sunglasses
* Louis Vuitton Speedy 30


wishbone necklace

{yes, lame smirky smile going on here but it's a good close-up of the necklace and my splotchy forehead which is directly caused by birth control pills and sun -working together to ruin my life ;) ...I wish someone would have told me this would happen when I was on the pill for two years in my 20's I would have avoided the sun. I hated that pill -it effed me all up and if Past Maegan knew then how difficult a time Future Maegan would have getting pregnant, We could've avoided the whole thing}


miu miu clog sandals+louis vuitton speedy



I'm sure everyone's talking about the Emmys & I won't be the exception but I'll make it short

1. Ricky Gervais was my favorite part
2. Claire Danes had my favorite dress
3. Modern Family is one of the best new shows on TV and I'm so glad it won for so many things ...though it had some pretty stiff competition.
4. We need to start watching Mad Men ...if for nothing else but the insane boobage {did you happen to catch the Ryan Seacrest interview with Christina Hendricks on E? ...nuff said

What was your favorite part? Favorite dress? Thoughts?




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