Sad to be an American sometimes

It's so easy to live in our own world, unaffected by the real world. In a way, we almost have no choice. The thought of what is actually happening around us is not only terrifying, it's just so so wrong, and we would not be able to function without denial or turning a blind eye to it.

But then sometimes you are thrust into it, bombarded with information that justifies your beliefs. The knowledge is addicting. Once you know some, you must know all or you feel like you're being left in the dark.

It's difficult for me to find a balance sometimes because this knowledge is so depressing and I feel not only hopeless but helpless and fearful as well. However, if I were to talk to anyone [who doesn't know me] about this, they would probably recommend some sort of drug to ease my mind. But is that the answer? That's not even a solution. That's more denial.