a fresh breath & a project

Okay, so yes, I've been fairly negative lately and having my own pity party - HOWEVER, I'm going to blame it on my monthly AWESOME that's about to show up which not only sucks on a average scale of suckage, but breaks my heart with every drop as well. Not to negate my feelings or anything but I'm noticing a pattern and I'm sure next month the same thing will happen and I'll be all like "what the fuck?"

Anyway, I've come to the realization that while I'm using my creativity to it's fullest (or close to it anyway) on the computer with my computer skillz, I'm not really utilizing them outside the digital world. I've been blaming the things I don't have for it too. And now, it must stop.

Patience is not my strong point so it seems I'm given the opportunity to be patient ALL THE TIME - and like I said, it's not my strong point. So, I am still learning, and will be tested until I do, I suppose.

I've been trolling the www for inspiration (and re-organizing my homestead) and have decided to start working on a couple new projects to keep me busy until I don't have to be patient any longer ...and maybe, just maybe, I'll learn some patient skillz along the way.

I'll keep you posted (eheheh, pun) on the projects.