June 1st 2004 | My Billy

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I think the car came just in time – who knows what would have happened
-had you got to the other side

The rational of it all – the contrasting shades
- the symmetry of the morning
could not be duplicated, recreated – or erased

I wish I was still 27 – you would still be here
- instead of in heaven, though I don’t believe it’s real

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Billy was a birthday present in 2002 {a 6mo old rescue} and he was taken away two years later – on my birthday.

Not a birthday goes by that I do not think of that morning. The morning I turned 28. The morning Billy McBillerson died. If I told you the story, you wouldn’t believe me.

I found the above poem I wrote in an old journal the other night while searching for something else.

Two pages later, I found this: “Death doesn’t just take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed.” from The Five People you Meet in Heaven

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…and I believe it. Lives WERE changed because of his death. Pep and I became “we” and we saved LeRoy. But I will shed tears every year on my birthday forever and sadly I will be reminded of “her” as well.

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billy next to red silk throw

billy the boston

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Billy the Boston Terrier | RIP William McBillerson, you were so loved… 2002-2004

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4 Comments

  • Alison

    June 1, 2008 | Reply

    My heart hurts…

  • Nanny Pants is on the loose

    June 2, 2008 | Reply

    Rest in peace mr. mcBillerson. Maybe this is why i’m not meant to have pets. i can’t stand the pain when they have to leave us. I miss him too. He was there and witnessed us through it ALL.

  • Mama's Losin' It

    June 5, 2008 | Reply

    Awwww…I want to know what happened!

  • Penny

    January 12, 2009 | Reply

    you know what?i believe only truly incredible people can come to love an animal to such an extent that that animal becomes more than family or more than a friend.the way you talk about your dogs and your love for them,is really beautiful.i am glad to know that i am not the only person who grieves so deeply when i lose one of my animals.

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