A Forced Break

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Except for the occasional Saturday, I publish a blog post every single day, and I do so for more reasons than one. But mostly, I do it to because it’s my job and I love it and I enjoy staying connected to all of you and to this blogging internet world that so many of us “live” in.

On the rare occasion that I am somehow unable to post, like yesterday, I feel a certain amount of pressure and anxiety build up and find my mind obsessing on the fact that I am not doing my job.

Sure I am my own boss, and sure I can choose to show up for work or not, but most days, I show up – and when I can’t, I feel like a bad employee. It sounds funny, but it’s so true.

I don’t really take sick days or vacation days, even though I could {and probably should now and again} it’s just not part of my work ethic {at least now that I work for myself ;}. And I wonder if that categorizes me as too involved, obsessed, and possibly labeled as a workaholic? But if you love your work and what you do, do the same labels fit?

Yesterday morning I sat down at my desk {above} to get to work and my computer had had it. It was done. I could do nothing.

And at that realization, a surge of adrenaline and anxiety rushed over me. So I ran up stairs to the guest room where I keep my old iMac {since there’s no TV in that room, guests can watch DVDs on it} and hoped I could work from it. But the keyboard wasn’t working and I couldn’t find the other one.

My only choice was to accept defeat and adapt to the fact that I was going to HAVE TO just take the day off and try to get my computer fixed.

Gripping the wheel, I made it down the mountain and to the nearest Apple store, which is at Victoria Gardens in Rancho Cucamonga, and one of the prettiest shopping destinations I’ve been to in a while {because generally I just shop online}. It’s a cross between 3rd Street in Santa Monica and Vegas casino shops, and is HUGE. It was my first visit and a little too hot now that I’m used to the crisp mountain air, but on a breezy spring day, it would make for a nice afternoon with a friend.

The Apple store was beautiful and everyone was super nice and helpful and as I was waiting for a “genius” to help me out, an adorably sweet girl named Amy made me blush when she approached me to tell me she follows my blog {Thanks Amy ;}

But when all was said and done, {and no, my computer is still not repaired} but knowing that I couldn’t work no matter what, surprisingly took a little pressure off and by the end of the day I started thinking that maybe I should take the whole week off and spend it creating the list of DIYs and home improvements I’ve wanted to do but haven’t had the time, and have them all photographed and ready to edit for the coming weeks.

And then I thought, yeah right, Take the whole week off!?!? I couldn’t.

So I purchased a laptop, because I’ve been wanting to anyway so I can choose to work in another, more relaxed space and environment, if I’d like to, and found an old keyboard for my old computer, because it has programs like Photoshop that I need, and set up shop in the guest room upstairs.

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I’m actually sitting at the kitchen counter typing this right now as the doggies play/fight with each other under my feet, and that’s nice… so maybe I’ll just slow it down a bit this week and meet somewhere in the middle of what my work ethic tells me I “should” be doing and what my body and mind actually want to do.

That’s a start, right?

 

LA native & lifestyle blogger Maegan Tintari writes daily at ...love Maegan.com sharing beauty & style secrets, including fashion DIYs, how-to nail art manicures, hair tutorials, recipes & home decorating ideas, as well as a look into her personal life, her journey & battle with infertility & recent relocation to the mountains by a lake in search of a better life with her adorable French Bulldog brothers, Trevor and Randy.

5 Comments

  • Mindy

    May 6, 2014 |

    Yes, maybe the universe is telling you something. 😉 But I know how you feel, even though I only post 5 days a week (on two blogs) I still work every day …. but it’s not good for you! You have to take those days off once in a while to recharge your creative batteries. Enjoy your new laptop!

  • Always So Sweet

    May 6, 2014 |

    Yes, you have our “permission” to take a few days off!! We love knowing that you are relaxing, caring for Trevor, Randy, and Bebop. Just enjoying life. There are plenty of days ahead. “Have no fear” (Used to be a popular phrase.)!

  • Brittney Wells

    May 6, 2014 |

    Maegan, I have been following your blog for as long as I could remember. You are one of the first bloggers I ever gave my undivided attention to when I first started religiously reading blogs on a daily basis a few years back. Everything you post is always so inspiring and I can not tell you how much I enjoyed reading this post. I just very recently started blogging back in February, but you are one of my inspirations and for that I just want to say thanks. You’re posts are always so relatable, passionate, and fun! You deserve a week off girl!! All your readers (including myself) will be patiently waiting your return. 🙂

    xo – Brittney
    fabphilosophy.blogspot.com

  • Albertine

    May 7, 2014 |

    Of course you can take a few days off! That’s fabulous for your mind and body!
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  • Amanda @ A.Co est. 1984

    May 7, 2014 |

    Take the week off, Maegan!! We will all be here when you return!

    That said, that SUCKS about your computer (ugh!) but exciting about the new laptop (you will love it, minus the baby screen in comparison, but it’s a quick adjustment).

    See you Monday!