I Loved Him When I Left Him

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What I’m Wearing…

* BB Dakota Alexia Plaid Shirtdress
* Sunhat with black bow
* 3.1 Phillip Lim Tortoise Sunglasses
* Pink suede slouch bag from Topshop a few years ago
* Black ankle wrap espadrilles

* Title: Camila Cabello – Havana (Audio) ft. Young Thug

If only we could be strangers again.

I had planned on posting this on Wednesday… but I didn’t know what to write… and then life got in the way, and then Thursday came and I still didn’t know what to write. And instead of forcing it, or writing about my outfit, which I generally think is just a boring waste of space, I thought I may as well just wait until inspiration hit and the paths in my mind cleared and made way for something new…

Yesterday I found myself a little emotional… it’s that time of the month, so it’s to be expected. But you know when you’re emotional and you just can’t put your finger on why so you need to be moved by something like a movie or a song or a book or a moment to force the tears from your eyes and cleanse your mental space?

I wanted to be moved. I was looking for something that would move me. that would inspired me. that would transport me. to force emotion from me. that would get me out of my own world and into a new one…

I found the movie that did just that.

COLLATERAL BEAUTY

Have you seen it? What’d you think?

Though it was just released last year, I’d never heard of it, but while scrolling through my movie channels, it just popped out at me and so I clicked on it and gave it a try. and I loved it. I loved it because it gave me all the feels I was looking for. It made me think and it made me ask myself difficult questions I’d been avoiding for longer than I’d care to admit, and it also brought a strange acceptance to a few things. I love when a movie does that, so I loved it.

I dunno that I was so impressed by the plot or the story, though both were absolutely fine and I loved the twist, I was more moved by moments and the dialogue…

Three abstractions connect every single human being on earth… LOVE, TIME, and DEATH… we long for love… we wish we had more time… we fear death

I find myself still holding back in so many ways, right now as I write this and in life as I leap into new beginnings. I worry about repeating the past, doubts and fears keep me from being authentic on so many levels, but not always. I generally follow my intuition and allow it to guide me, but sometimes I still find myself falling into old behaviors and patterns that I worked so hard in the past to free myself from to become a better person.

Sometimes it’s difficult to remember that love and human connection is the answer to all of our WHY’S in life when love and people have betrayed us so many times in the past…

Yet still, love is what we all long for the most.

Be sure to notice the collateral beauty

plaid shirtdress summer style - maegan tintari

plaid shirtdress summer style - love maegan tintari

ankle wrap espadrille wedges - summer style - maegan tintari

plaid shirtdress summer style - maegan tintari

plaid shirtdress summer style - maegan tintari

plaid shirtdress summer style - love maegan tintari

plaid shirtdress summer style - love maegan tintari

plaid shirtdress summer style - love maegan tintari

plaid shirtdress summer style - love maegan tintari

Happy Friday Lovecats!

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LA native & lifestyle blogger Maegan Tintari writes daily at ...love Maegan.com sharing beauty & style secrets, including fashion DIYs, how-to nail art manicures, hair tutorials, recipes & home decorating ideas, as well as a look into her personal life, her journey & battle with infertility & recent relocation to the mountains by a lake in search of a better life with her adorable French Bulldog brothers, Trevor and Randy.

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